Did I find the Holy Grail? Or at least the missing link that I've been looking for all these years? After re-reading an article from EndoNatural that i had kept in my files for over 6 years, I discovered to my horror on November 25th, 2009 that I had a Control Pause (CP) that is 12. Actually, now I've learned that it was lower than that since I've learned how to do the CP correctly. In the beginning I was pushing myself to hold my breath longer, thus getting an artificially high CP....
Sorry, I'm jumping right into this...let me try to explain. Basically, I hyperventilate, really severely. This has an impact on the well being of my entire body. No wonder I'm never healing from candida.
I began working with a practitioner who knows the Buteyko Method in mid December after my own attempts at learning how to breathe from online descriptions and videos failed miserably.
So, here begins yet another healing journey for me. As always, it involves a new round of detox/healing symptoms for me to get through.
So far my symptoms have been the following:
Nightmares (every night, super unusual for me these days), diarrhea (extremely severe, way beyond my chronic diarrhea), nausea (a different more acute kind than what I've experienced with candida detox), dizziness, ringing in my ears, buzzing in my head, way worse edema, worse sunken eyes, explosive mood swings, extreme anxiety attacks, depression, feeling emotionally overwhelmed, physically exhausted, stomach cramps, coughing (the last time I had a cough was about 15 years ago so this is quite extraordinary for me), sore throat, labored breathing, headaches, pressure over my chest, loosing handfuls of hair, waking up feeling like I'm about to suffocate, etc.
Yupp, it's a journey alright. Fingers crossed this will actually lead me forward...At least I don't feel stuck anymore....It's back to digging into the hard work of sitting and practicing breathing 4 times per day for about 20 minutes each time. It's a challenge but I've never been afraid to work hard. Just afraid of more pain.
So, here I go:
Leroy Jenkins!!!!!!
